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Today could be a different day
if the sky lifts up the haze
off of my front lawn
or just another time i hold my tears
for another year
on my way back home.

-The Starting Line

It's better here.

I've been in Oklahoma for over a year. I really truly hate it here. It's a complete 180 compared to the East Coast.

Oklahoma city? What a lie. It's not a city. You want to see a city? Go to DC, Baltimore, Philly. Those are cities. This is a fucking fraud.

The people here are SO narrow minded. They're all judgmental bible thumpers and I'm tired of it. I'm sick of dirty looks, of people not respecting my opinions, I'm tired of people telling me that I'm wrong! The whole state is just completely backwards. I want to go home. I miss the ocean. I'm suffocating.

*// I don't know why but everytime I post something like this where I've used Photoshop brushes, just tools outside of editing contrast/colour and adding a border, I feel like I'm cheating. Because Photoshop seems to be such a dirty word amongst photographers. I know alot of people think that Photoshop is an easy way to make a boring photo interesting and I don't want people to think of my photos that way.


March 2008 Monthly Scavenger Hunt Solitary

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Because they’re always coming back (coming back).

- Say Anything

I don't mean to be this depressing or take such moody pictures.

They just kind of "happen."

I could have taken a happy smiley picture.

But then I would be lying.

I fell asleep on the couch at around 4, woke up at 9. Now I feel terrible. Everything aches. I have to get up early tomorrow morning to take my dad to the airport. Ugh.

But I'm looking forward to the break. I'm SO tired of hearing "Would you put that goddamn camera down for 5 minutes?"

NO.

Because I can't. It might as well be surgically attached to my hand. Cause I don't know what to do with myself when I'm not holding it.

Does that make any sense?

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time for something that won't last.

Layer #1 is from James' Textures for Layers set, I used this one. Layer #2 is here.

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My heart is filled so full of doubt.

- The Ataris

I decided to finally explore textures. Holymygosh. They are SO much more fun than texture brushes! And you can manipulate them alot more. This feels very Jessi-esque to me.

Layer #1 is from James' Textures for Layers set, I used this one. Layer #2 is here.

I woke up at 5 this evening. Passed out last night at 930. My sleep schedule is driving me crazy.

My necklace from the jewelry party came in! This isn't the super awesome one I was talking about, but mom won't let me have it until my birthday. Which I think is pretty lame because I already know what it is and my birthday isn't until November. :( I asked if I could just use it for my 365 and she said yes. In November. Poop. :(

My whole body aches. My thighs are killing me from jumping in and out of this pose a million times yesterday. My neck is tense, I've got a massive headache and my sinuses have that itchy/allergy/pressured 'you might be getting sick, muahahaha' feeling. :(

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