I'm really fuckin board.

Ohmygod.

I'm so lame.

But I told you I'd be back. Get ready for round 2.

I was uploading my rejects earlier this morning, and I noticed that I had some new Flickr notices. Go look at this freaks profile and tell me why I didn't add him. I'm gagging. (Scroll down to his groups if you're confused.) I'm not trying to attack anybody with this, I just want to remind people to check you who adds you to their contact list and even who adds your favourites. Be safe.

I've been up since 4pm yesterday. My nose/sinuses are SO congested, I sound stupid and it feels like an elephant is sitting on my face. My chest hurts really bad too, there's so much shit in my lungs and I can't get it out. It's kind of getting hard to breathe. It's been like this for 5 days. I've taken every OTC decongestant I can find. On top of that, I'm up to a pack and a half a day because I'm SO stressed out, and I'm sure it's not helping whatever is stuck in my lungs but I can't help it. I'm anxious and nervous and stressed out. I've only got half a pack left. Which means I have to ask my mom AGAIN to loan me money for cigarettes.

"Do you know what it's like to care too much, bout someone that you're never gonna get to touch?
Hey man, now you're really livin.
Do you know what it's like to fall on the floor, cry your guts out till you got no more?
Hey man, now you're really livin.
Have you ever made love to a beautiful girl, made you feel like it's not such a bad world?
Hey man, now you're really livin."
-The Eels

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i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

-e.e. cummings

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Um, it's supposed to be a dead squid. I'm terrible at drawing.

A fellow flickr-er/365er gifted me a pro account. THANKYOU! :D

Today was kind of. Blah. I didn't do anything really. Sat on the computer all day. I guess tomorrow I'm going out looking for a job maybe. It depends on the weather.

I have a massive headache.

I feel really blank so I guess that's all I have to say.

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...Sugar on the asphalt.

- Jimmy Eat World

Again, this picture was so much brighter on my PC. I don't know which computer to trust. Hm.

Well today fucking sucked. I tried to take a happy colourful photo to cheer myself up though, and it kind of worked a little.

The weather is horrible. It's grey and wet and FREEZING. And now I'm upset that I've procrastinated doing my superhero shot for the 365days podcast because now the sun isn't supposed to be out til next week. Grrr. Which means I have to beg my dad to lug one of his big huge flood lights up to my apartment and convince him that I'm not going to make a mess up there, but that I really need it to take pictures. I have such a good hero idea too. :( I hope I get to take it.

My back is killing me today.

I guess I'll stop talking now. I'm convinced that by writing such long "blogs" underneath my photos, I'm intimidating people and making them not want to comment on the picture. It's just that when I look back at these photos in a few years I want to remember how I was feeling and what happened that day. I really could give a shit whether anyone reads them :P

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