You know you're so fucked up.
So today is
Jessi's birthday and I decided to do a tribute shot for her. I tried doing
this one (I had on my pearls and everything!) but it wasn't working out. Jessi I don't know how the fuck you got your pictures to look like that but I spent an hour in PS trying (and failing) to figure it out. So then I decided to do
this one. Only mine is not in colour and I'm not making an awesome Jessi face. So really, this doesn't looks like a Jessi picture at all. But I posted some Ryan Adams lyrics to make up for it. Anyway, Happy Birthday Jessi! <3
I'm having issues with my hair. I don't feel comfortable in it. I feel childish. Every time I look in the mirror I want to scream at myself to grow up. I want to love it but I just feel so self conscious about it all the time. I'm not used to people looking at me and shouting things at me. And they aren't being mean, it's all really nice things but it kind of embarrasses me. I just can't stop thinking about how I wish I'd never done it to begin with. And I can't dye it back because I spent like $70 on it and my mom would be SO mad if I just threw it away. So to all of you people out there with odd coloured hair - does it get better? Am I the only one who feels this way? Maybe I'm just weird. I don't know.
My navel piercing is REALLY infected. REALLY badly. I can't go see my doctor because he's a judgemental asshole and I don't feel like putting up with his bullshit. I see the chiropractor Monday (I can't wait!) and so after that mom said she'd take me to an urgent care clinic for some antibiotics. Apparently the LITHA method doesn't work with navel piercings. :/
Yesterday before the concert I stopped off at a photography place that my dad mentioned, they just opened and he thought that maybe they were hiring. I thought it was like a shop where they sold cameras and stuff, but it was a portrait studio. Kind of disappointing, but I asked about a job anyway. The lady said they weren't hiring right now but I should check back later in the summer. Which kind of excites me because I think if I put a portfolio together and took it in they might hire me...I mean how hard is taking people's portraits? I do it all the time. Even if I could just intern or something, learn a little. It'd be rad if you guys could cross your fingers for me because I really need a job and this would be SO amazing if it works out.
I have 154 flickrmails that I haven't checked. I don't think I've replied to comments on any of my photos for like a week. And I've been seriously slacking on commenting everyone elses streams. I suck. I feel terrible.
I've been thinking about going friends only for a while. I'm just feeling kind of overwhelmed and overexposed.
